I found an old picture
of myself and a man
And I'm on his shoulders
'cause I'm a little kid
We both looked so happy
and we have the same eyes
But my life's told the truth
that pictures often lie

*Chorus*
And today, it is the day
when I'm supposed to call you
Ask you if you liked your card
say "thank you" and "I love you"
But you're just a faded memory
all that's clear is all my pain
And you know as well as I do
that today is not your day

I remember so well
each sad and painful stage
Needing love and friendship
that you never once gave
Maybe you were fucked up
and you had your own pain
But why wouldn't you try?
Why did I have to pay?

*Repeat Chorus*

But now that I'm older
I'm not much better
than you are, I can see
But at least there's no kid
somewhere in despair
and crying over me

*Repeat Chorus*

You know that I still miss you
but I just cannot love you
Because of you, I hate you
oh, and always, myself too
All you gave me is just pain
so today is not your day

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quote:

Maybe you were fucked up
and you had your own pain
But why wouldn't you try?
Why did I have to pay?

I can so relate to these four lines w/ my relationships w/ both my parents. I love my father b/c he's been through so much shit but at least he tries his best for me..my mother on the other hand, can't stand..all she does is wallow in her own self-pity and try to bring me down it seems..but yeah I can relate to this song alot..once again awesome job!

Well, thank you so much Candice. For the compliment and sharing your experience and relating to my song. Yeah, both Fathers Day and Mothers Day are not my favorite days of the year. :/

Very well done, Brian. I can't really relate to this one, as both of my parents probably did better for me than I could of asked. Which makes me feel like a complete schmuck (sp?) bc I have always been extremely fortunate yet Im still a miserable prick. Everyone else actually has reasons...I got nothing.

rant over.

seriously though you've done great, as always.

Thank you so much H. I really appreciate that.

But I think everyone's different and has their own reasons for being miserable sometimes. I mean, life can suck...in so many different ways. Variety, spice, and all that, haha.

haha

i know. i just feel like im so much luckier than so many people sometimes, yet im still miserable. its like...be happy for what you got, right? but i cant, which in turn makes me feel even worse.

sorry i didn't mean to hijack your thread with my bitching. today just is not my day. ha! get it? sad attempt to crack a smile, i know. i need a drink.

(ps to brian - if you feel like complaining ever, its probably better to do it in here where less people will see and you'll regret it less later. i just thought of that, hence my recent posts)

Well, if I'm gonna get hijacked, it's an honor to be hijacked by the master. Haha. I'm just playing. But yeah, I do appreciate the pun (I can relate in that context too). I DO have a sense of humor, though it probably don't seem like it most times.

But damn, I'm sorry you're having a bad day H. I'm bad at giving advice, but I dunno...try to do something you enjoy. Call someone, or go out somewhere and treat yourself. But anyway, I hope things get better for you bro.

And I know how you feel about seemingly having a good life, but still being unhappy. I mean, I have a job, my own place, no wife or kids and I can do what I want. But I still let my past, and my failures and other bad things get to me. I know there's people worse off than me, but I can't help how I feel.

But anyway, like I said, stay strong and I hope you get to feeling better.

Oh, and that's probably a good idea for me. PS- I'm not a sports fans, but that's an awesome pic in your sig.

I love it Brian, Great job!